Day 8 | bigeyesseemore's Blog

Today was..crazy.

Well..the last couple hours have been crazy.

Richie came over, and he's the shyest person you'll ever meet. And he tells me to wear short sleeves tomorrow, and to not care about who see's my cuts.
That was crazy.
I eventually told him that I would.
That was crazy.
I'm actually going to.
This is crazy.

And then, right on cue, Heather called. Asked me if I'd eaten today, I said yes because I'd hardly eaten yesterday because I felt weird all day. And she immediately responds with 
"Oh. Well, just so you know, I didn't eat yesterday. Or today. And I won't tomorrow."
And  I start the lecture on how that's bad and how we can't do that anymore and how if I could overcome all of that then so could she.
And she calls me a fat bitch, and goes into how she's never going to the gym again because she just won't eat.
Usually I just let her go. It's the anorexia talking, not her. But this time..I actually said something back.
I said..
Not eating and being a gym rat makes you look good in clothes. Being healthy and not crazy underweight..makes you look good naked. Its been how long since you've hooked up with someone hun?
And then I hung up.

So yeah, that was kind of my bitch moment for the time being..felt pretty good honestly.

She'll get over it eventually, I know she's strong.

But uh, in the spirit of things, I'm thinking of doing something crazy. Don't know what, or when. But trust me, I miss the old days. So, it'll come.

But for tonight, I'll spend my time with a nice bow ofl jalapenos and an obnoxious amount of time on tumblr. And hell, if I'm in a good mood, I'll call someone. 

"I fall too fast, no one can stop me now."

This Blog Entry's Comment Board
There are no comments on this post yet, be the first to leave one!
Your Comment:

Previous Posts
Returning, Take Two., posted July 31st, 2014
Returning, posted June 17th, 2014
Confused, posted February 17th, 2014
Liar, posted February 2nd, 2014
Golden Tr(age)dy, posted January 16th, 2014
Cold Coffee, posted January 11th, 2014
Thanks For Leaving the Light On, posted January 6th, 2014
Secrets, posted December 3rd, 2013
Obligations, posted November 26th, 2013
Jet Plane, posted November 19th, 2013
Comfortable, posted November 10th, 2013
Elongated, posted November 7th, 2013
"If Only", posted November 1st, 2013, 1 comment
Drowning, posted October 31st, 2013
Home, posted October 28th, 2013
Ceaselessly, posted October 26th, 2013
Invisible, posted October 24th, 2013
Scars, posted October 18th, 2013
Madly. Truly. Deeply., posted October 7th, 2013
Continue, Please., posted September 26th, 2013
Left Side vs. Right Side, posted September 24th, 2013
Continuous Green, posted September 22nd, 2013
Exhale, posted September 18th, 2013, 1 comment
Grapevine Fires, posted September 14th, 2013
Cherish, posted September 11th, 2013
Welcome To My Life, posted September 9th, 2013
Demons, posted September 5th, 2013
The Opposite of Indifference, posted September 1st, 2013
Less Than, posted August 30th, 2013
Smoke, posted August 29th, 2013
Echo, posted August 28th, 2013
Coffee Break, posted August 27th, 2013
L_ST, posted August 26th, 2013
Maybe, posted August 25th, 2013
Big Parade, posted August 24th, 2013
Untouchable, posted August 21st, 2013
Persisting, posted August 20th, 2013
"Keep Going, I Guess", posted August 16th, 2013
Shutting Down, posted August 2nd, 2013
Drifting, posted July 31st, 2013
Touching Down, posted July 26th, 2013
Carry On, posted July 21st, 2013
Fixing It, posted July 13th, 2013
Relapse, posted July 12th, 2013
A Change of Pace, posted July 11th, 2013
The Beginning of the End, posted July 8th, 2013
Day 0, posted July 6th, 2013
Day 0, posted July 3rd, 2013
Day 1, posted July 3rd, 2013
Day 0 (continued), posted July 1st, 2013
1-50 of 175 Blog Posts   

Here are some friends' blogs...

How to Embed Photos in your Blog Embed Photos How to Embed Videos in your Blog Embed Videos