Day 8 | bigeyesseemore's Blog

Today was..crazy.

Well..the last couple hours have been crazy.

Richie came over, and he's the shyest person you'll ever meet. And he tells me to wear short sleeves tomorrow, and to not care about who see's my cuts.
That was crazy.
I eventually told him that I would.
That was crazy.
I'm actually going to.
This is crazy.

And then, right on cue, Heather called. Asked me if I'd eaten today, I said yes because I'd hardly eaten yesterday because I felt weird all day. And she immediately responds with 
"Oh. Well, just so you know, I didn't eat yesterday. Or today. And I won't tomorrow."
And  I start the lecture on how that's bad and how we can't do that anymore and how if I could overcome all of that then so could she.
And she calls me a fat bitch, and goes into how she's never going to the gym again because she just won't eat.
Usually I just let her go. It's the anorexia talking, not her. But this time..I actually said something back.
I said..
Not eating and being a gym rat makes you look good in clothes. Being healthy and not crazy underweight..makes you look good naked. Its been how long since you've hooked up with someone hun?
And then I hung up.

So yeah, that was kind of my bitch moment for the time being..felt pretty good honestly.

She'll get over it eventually, I know she's strong.

But uh, in the spirit of things, I'm thinking of doing something crazy. Don't know what, or when. But trust me, I miss the old days. So, it'll come.

But for tonight, I'll spend my time with a nice bow ofl jalapenos and an obnoxious amount of time on tumblr. And hell, if I'm in a good mood, I'll call someone. 

"I fall too fast, no one can stop me now."