Day 36 | bigeyesseemore's Blog

Everything hurts honestly. Physically, mentally...
I feel like a broken record by saying this, but I'm falling apart. 
(Was I ever fixed?)
My sister's still missing, Heather stole all of Richie's money for drugs, Savannah has Pancreatic cancer. 
And it's weird because everyone keeps telling me to stop caring so much.
Please, teach me how to not give a damn while the people I love the most struggle everyday. I'd love to know how to be heartless and carefree. It sounds great.

I have exams this week, that I am going to fail because I can't remember anything.

My meds aren't doing anything for me.

I got beat up.

I can't sleep through the night, I just wake up and cry.

That's all I ever seem to do anymore, cry and cry and cry.


I hate it here...and that's an understatement. I truly despise it here.
The people, the environment, the looks of it..
I feel like a polar bear in a Florida zoo.

No idea why I don't just jump out of my cage and kill everyone,
But instead I sit quietly and let the little fat kid poke my ear with his finger.

My relationships with pretty much everyone are falling apart. I officially suck at talking to people. 

And honestly,
I just want to go home.

"Wide eyed, like we're in a crime scene."