Day 20 | bigeyesseemore's Blog

Still taking things day by day. I don't quite know what's going on, but I'm still working to find pleasure in the little aspects of my day that make me smile. I don't have much to tell you, because frankly I've been having trouble recently with what to say. The two day span of warm weather has improved my mood, but it's supposed to get a lot colder by the end of the week. I'd kill to see the sun right about now. 
Right now the greater things in life include finding a new song, a funny picture on tumblr, oatmeal, and curling up in bed.
Oh and strings.
Of course that.

The people I sit with have started counting calories and are talking pro ana. But then there's me and Han, ignoring it the whole time and discussing music and how much we think society is failing.
It's nice to have people like that.

But I guess I feel kind of fragile right now. Well, honestly I am. If anything else bad was to happen right now I think I really would fall apart. 
I've still been crying a lot.

I just want to smile again. 
A real one.
Laugh like I used to, the works.

But that's okay, hopefully it'll be better soon.

And by the way, the stars are beautiful tonight, even though I'm still pretty sure I'm the only one that can see them.

"But me, I'm not a gamble. You can count on me to split. The love I'll sell you in the evening, by the morning won't exist."