Day 6 | bigeyesseemore's Blog
Another long day.. I feel so drained. I just want to curl up in a ball and die for awhile.
I went to the doctors and basically cried the entire time. It's so frustrating, I hate that I can't talk to people about what's going on with me, not even to people close to me.
The cuts still haven't faded, but I'm just getting impatient I guess.
But I don't know.,I just feel like there's something very wrong. I can't really actually smile at anything, I haven't laughed in awhile..I just over all feel terrible.
I couldn't sleep last night, so I'm on an hour of sleep..again.
I was so anxious about everything, closing my eyes was a challenge all by itself.
I feel like I'm going to throw up or something because of how nervous I am. There's like this huge knot in my stomach and I keep getting so anxious about everything.
I can't even think straight..
I just, I'm feeling really alone right now.
Which is probably my fault, I'm not really talking to anybody.
Like, I see people and I 'talk' to them.
But it's basically a one sided conversation and I nod when appropriate.
But, that's life right now I suppose.
But that's okay.
"Forgiveness flows through her like blood flows through me."
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